I think most of you reading this have been there, that place where you realise, just a little too late, that you feel something towards someone that they should’ve probably known about earlier.
Firstly, I should probably apologise for the lack of blog posts recently. With starting my new job, moving out of the family home turning 18 and a whole array of other things, I just haven’t had time to write. I also had no Wi-Fi until this morning.
I don’t even know where to start in explaining what has gone on in my life since the last time I blogged. I turned 18 on the 2nd of July, and despite the massive hype, then let down, that most people have, I can say that it does actually kind of live up to its reputation. There was the hype, then the disappointment of feeling exactly the same as you were yesterday. I had a great day, I was spoiled by my family, surrounded by friends and most importantly alcohol. I had a small party filled with my closest of friends and family and I felt so loved by everyone, you never really realise how many good friends you have and how important that they are to you until you have everyone that matters to you in a room together.
My new job, I started the Monday after my 18th, and I can actually say that I feel moved in to my new place. It’s so strange to be living on my own though. I feel like I’m getting used to the early mornings and although struggling to cope with the long days, it’s just something that I am going to have to get used to slowly. I have almost no time to see friends, I only see my family on the weekends for a short period of time and no one quite understands that I don’t actually have the time of day to answer texts, and actually have a decent conversation with someone. But I am getting used to that, and my friends are quite understanding, they know I’m busy and usually don’t finish till late. so replies are slow, especially if it is an in-depth conversation where I actually have to think about what I’m saying.
But all in all, my new job is going well. I’m enjoying it. I feel like I’m just getting the hang of the milking routine. this morning was a good milking, I was always busy and finding things to do, which I guess I should have been doing last week but now I know what needs to be done, and I am getting the gist of when to take the clusters off and what follows after. Every day is a new day here, there’s always something different to do, apart from milking the cows, that’s the same.
What else has happened? I can’t even remember myself!
So this blog was meant to go up on the 18th of July, but I’ve only just turned my laptop on to finish it.. oops. Either way, not much has changed in my life. I guess something i could write about is how I feel as if I have ‘gotten over’ my ex boyfriend. The one that has been mentioned so much in my older blogs. I no longer feel that want to talk to him, or to see him. I think a big part of this fairly large step up in my life was down to the fact that I just stopped talking to him, I stopped seeing him and didn’t text him anymore, and can I just say it feels great not to be thinking about him 24/7, I’m not tied down by my feelings anymore and I guess you could say I’m free from that trap I was caught in. I’ve moved on and started a new, great chapter in my life.
I also have quit my old job since I last blogged, I handed in my letter giving 4 weeks notice, it being my last day on the 7th of August. I m going to be so so sad to finally leave, not being able to have all the banter that we do on the weekends. But I think I’m going to be so much happier because of it, I will finally be able to have a lie in and will have my first proper day off in a few months. I’m so excited. I could get quite emotional thinking about leaving, moving on from there and rarely seeing some of my really good friends again. The people I have worked with over the past year in there are honestly some of the kindest, greatest colleagues around, with some of the best regular customers that I will truly miss seeing on a weekly basis. I have had so many memories there, and so many that I will remember to be some of the best.